FROM MY HEART TO YOURS
As a woman on a path of spiritual development,
I have been burned in many bonfires that I myself helped build.
And most of them have been about love. Or the lack of it.
So many times in my life, I have begged for it, prayed for it, demanded it—
even broken my wrist for it.
That is how much I doubted love.
My skepticism created pain, suffering, and separation.
All my life, love was something I needed to work hard for.
To prove. To earn. To chase.
I traveled around the world becoming the woman I thought I had to be—
just to be lovable.
And all those years, I suffered over love
because I didn’t let love just be.
I demanded a result.
A guarantee.
A return.
Love became risky.
And most importantly, I had forgotten that love is not something to have—
it is who I am, in my very nature.
I remember seeing women—
all ages, all sizes—
who seemed to have understood this.
They glowed.
They moved with something ancient and alive.
They were juicy. Full. Radiant.
They were magnetic.
I used to wonder:
How do they do that? Were they born that way?
They were like magical beings to me.
I found them mesmerizing… and yes, sometimes I felt envy.
Because I knew how far away I was from being like them.
The belief that love was limited kept me attracting partners
who mirrored that very belief back to me.
Again and again.
And that mirror would always, inevitably, shatter.
There was never going to be a Happily Ever After.
Not until I looked into that mirror and faced my own sadness.
The sadness of not loving myself.
Shit.
I had to surrender.
I was angry. And I was humbled.
I had avoided this moment all my life.
I didn’t know what surrender meant
until I was on the floor, on my knees, begging God
to release me from this endless cycle of self-abandonment.
I died there. Somatically.
And I found something in the dying.
“It’s not your job to love me. It’s mine.”
This became my mantra.
Anytime my mind wandered outward to blame or pine or judge—
I came back to this truth.
And it didn’t just support me.
It gave me joy.
Ecstatic joy.
Because even when I couldn’t love myself—
I still loved truth.
And that… that set me free.
This is what it means to marry yourself.
To say yes to the most important relationship of your life.
To stop waiting to be chosen.
To walk yourself down the aisle, eyes wide open, heart whole.
And if you are ready to do that in the company of beauty, ceremony,
and women on the same sacred path…
I got you.
With so much love,
What is
"Marry Yourself" Retreat?
Marry Yourself is a deeply sacred, sensual, and sovereign 2-day retreat designed to initiate you into the next phase of your womanhood.
This is not a workshop.
This is not a performance.
This is a vow renewal with your essence.
Held at a resort in Northern California, this ceremonial space is for the woman who:
• Has done the work—but is still yearning for home inside herself
• Is ready to stop outsourcing her power and receive the love she gives so freely
• Wants to step into this next chapter as her own Beloved, Muse, Priestess, and Source
You Marry Yourself
When ...
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You’ve learned your lessons from past relationships.
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You realize the best thing you can give to a future (or current) partner is a whole you.
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You are done trying to fill the void—the one only you can fill.
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You want to choose the higher road.
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You no longer fall asleep with your iPhone on your pillow.
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You’re ready to become the mother to yourself that you never had.
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You feel bold, even if you’re scared.
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You’re tired of holding boundaries with people who don’t see you.
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You want your presence to be your protection.
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You’re done kissing frogs.
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And even if love never comes from another, you’re good. Because…
You’re already with The One.
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What you walk away with—seen and unseen.
1. A crystal-clear vow to yourself.
Written, spoken, and sealed. A living document you’ll take home, revisit, and re-embody again and again.
2. A ceremonial photograph of your wedding to self.
You, radiant. Witnessed. Captured in your essence by a professional photographer. A keepsake from the day you said Yes.
3. A somatic imprint of self-devotion.
You won’t just think differently—you’ll feel different in your body. Trance dance, ritual, and ceremony will rewire the way you hold yourself.
4. A deeper connection to the Divine within.
This isn’t just self-love—it’s sacred union. You will feel God more present, more personal, more intertwined with your being.
5. An end to chasing love outside yourself.
This is where the cycle breaks. You’ll stop begging for breadcrumbs. You’ll stop waiting to be chosen. Because you already are.
6. New boundaries without needing walls.
When your energy is sovereign, you don’t need to protect it so much. You emanate your standards. People feel it.
7. A radiant upgrade in how you’re perceived.
Clients. Lovers. Friends. They’ll notice. The glow is real. You’re no longer leaking energy—you’re magnetizing from a full cup.
8. A sacred sisterhood of witnesses.
You won’t do this alone. You’ll be seen, honored, and held in love by a small circle of women on the same path.
9. A renewed trust in your own timing.
After this, you’ll stop trying to rush, control, or “get it right.” You’ll trust that your life is unfolding in holy perfection.
10. Joy. Pleasure. Softness. Play.
We don’t marry ourselves out of duty. We marry ourselves out of desire. The weekend is laced with laughter, beauty, and holy mischief.
One Ceremony. Two Frequencies.
The Marry Yourself Retreat is offered in two distinct forms—because the soul speaks in different languages.
Both are sacred. Both are unforgettable.
One is rooted in the earth.
The other is wrapped in gold.
Choose the one that calls you home.
EARTH EDITION
Devotion. Simplicity. Sanctuary.
September 14–16, 2025 |
Retreat Center, Mendocino County, CA
A forest-framed experience for the woman who lives close to the land and even closer to God.
Simple eco-elegance. Private and cozy eco-glamping. Organic meals. Vow photography. Ritual.
A sacred pause. A true homecoming.
For the woman who wants to mark this moment in her life with a vow that brings her into radical alignment with what’s next.
GOLD EDITION
Luxury. Artistry. Radiance.
Winter 2026 | Dates Forthcoming |
Private Estate, Sonoma County, CA
A 120-acre sanctuary for the woman who walks with excellence.
Private king rooms. Farm-to-table meals. Vow photography. Balinese baths.
Land meets fine art. Devotion meets decadence.
For the woman who has everything—except somewhere to lay it all down.
Earth Edition
Retreat Logistics
DATES:
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Thursday 9/14 – Saturday 9/16, 2025
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Arrival by 4:00 PM on Sunday, departure by 11:00 AM on Tuesday.
LOCATION:
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Boonville, California | Airport: Charles M. Schulz–Sonoma County Airport, SFO or Oakland
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A private retreat center in Northern California, just 2.5 hours north of San Francisco. A soulful sanctuary nestled in the heart of Anderson Valley, where forest meets river, and silence speaks. This is the kind of place where women remember who they are.
INCLUDES:
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Two nights of eco-luxury glamping (private) under the stars. Cozy and close to nature.
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All meals lovingly prepared: organic, plant-based, nourishing and sensual
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All ceremonies, workshops, rituals, and guided experiences
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Self-marriage ceremony + vow writing support
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Wedding photography by In Her Image Photography
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Take-home gifts: vow scrolls, rose oil, sacred keepsakes
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Forest bathing, foot massage, pool soaks and river dips, movement, rest, and beauty
NOT INCLUDED:
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Transportation to and from the retreat center
INVESTMENT:
$3000
Payment plans available. A $555 non-refundable deposit is required to hold your seat. Balance is due by July 15, 2025.
A Gift for Women Who Are Ready to Say Yes Now:
If you know this is for you—and you’re ready to leap—I’m offering $300 off when you pay in full. Your commitment supports me in securing our sacred location and the wildly talented photographers who will witness your vows.
This is a ceremony of devotion—and it begins with this first “yes.”
REFUND POLICY:
Your $555 deposit is non-refundable.
No refunds will be issued after July 15, 2025.
This is a wedding for your soul. A ceremony to remember your wholeness. Don’t spend $30K on a wedding for someone else before you spend $3K on one for yourself.
TO REGISTER:
This is an intimate gathering, limited to only 8-10 women.
To reserve your place
1. Send a short note to riikka@riikkarajamaki.com with:
– What calls you to this?
– Why now?
– Any questions or desires you want to share
– If you're ready to pay in full (and receive a $300 off)
2. Pay a non-refundable deposit of $555.
First come, first served. If you’re reading this and feeling the YES… trust it.
Your $555 deposit is non-refundable and serves as your sacred “yes” to join us for the Marry Yourself retreat, September 14–16, 2025. This payment reserves your place in the circle. The remaining balance is due by July 15, 2025. By submitting your deposit, you are sealing your commitment to this beautiful ceremony of devotion to yourself. I can’t wait to welcome you.
Gold Edition
Retreat Logistics
DATES:
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Winter 2026 — Exact dates will be chosen once 5 women have reserved their place.
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This gathering is being lovingly co-created with those who are called. Once the core circle is formed, we will align the perfect dates together — so every woman can plan with clarity and joy.
LOCATION:
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Healdsburg, California
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A private 120–acre luxury estate in the heart of Sonoma wine country, just 90 minutes from San Francisco. Think ancient oaks, Balinese baths, velvet hills, and refined stillness. Every corner whispers beauty. Every moment invites you deeper.
INCLUDES:
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Two nights of luxury lodging (private king suites for every guest)
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Farm to table catered meals: organic, seasonal, sensual, and deeply nourishing
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All ceremonies, rituals, workshops, and sacred containers
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Self-marriage ceremony with personal vow-writing guidance
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Private wedding photography session by In Her Image Photography
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Lavish take-home keepsakes: vow scroll, rose oil, and sacred gifts
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Movement, meditation, stillness, fire, beauty, and deep restoration
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Access to stunning grounds, Balinese soaking tubs, gardens, and curated spaces for reflection
NOT INCLUDED:
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Transportation to and from the retreat center
PRICING:
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$4200 per guest
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Each woman receives a private king room with en suite bath at the estate.
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To reserve your place: An $888 non-refundable deposit is required.
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The remaining balance can be paid in full or in two installments. Balance due one month prior to retreat dates.
This is not a getaway. It’s a vow. A sacred initiation into the next chapter of your life.
TO REGISTER:
This is an intimate gathering, limited to only 5 women.
To reserve your place
1. Send a short note to riikka@riikkarajamaki.com with:
– What calls you to this?
– Why now?
– Any questions or desires you want to share
2. Pay a non-refundable deposit of $888
First come, first served. If you’re reading this and feeling the YES… trust it.
Earth Edition Location
A hidden gem, a historic resort in the beautiful Mendocino County, CA.
Gold Edition Location
Luxury ranch in the heart of Sonoma wine country, California. Winter 2026
What Every Sovereign Woman Wants to Know…
Do I have to be single?
Not at all. This is about deepening your union with yourself, no matter your relationship status. The first woman who sent her deposit has been married for 45 years.
Is this retreat only for women?
This retreat is created for women and those who feel at home in women’s spaces. All sexual orientations are welcome—whether you are straight, queer, or lesbian. If you resonate with feminine ceremony and self-devotion, you belong here. This is a sacred space for women to gather.
Will there be any plant medicine or nudity?
This is a sober retreat. All practices are consent-based, clothed, and trauma-informed.
What should I bring?
You’ll receive a full packing list with luxurious suggestions to help you feel most radiant in your personal ceremony.
Is this retreat religious?
It is holy, not religious. All faiths and paths are welcome. Our devotion is to Love itself.
What if I feel selfish spending this money or time on myself?
You know what’s selfish? A world that taught you to pour into everyone else and leave yourself last. This is the revolution where you flip that script. When you choose yourself, everyone around you feels the ripple.
And You, My Love, Are a Damn Good Investment. You walking out of here so in love with yourself, people will wonder who you’re sleeping with. (Spoiler: it’s you.)
What if I feel nervous coming alone?
Perfect. Most women come solo — and leave feeling deeply connected. We create a warm, welcoming space where you’ll feel safe, seen, and celebrated from the moment you arrive. You’re in good company here.
Do I have to call it “marrying myself” if that language doesn’t click for me?
Nope. This is your ceremony, and you get to define what it means. Whether you see it as a commitment, a vow renewal, or a celebration of your own worth — it’s about you, not labels.
Is this retreat suitable if I’m going through a breakup/divorce?
Yes, and it’s powerful for that. Many women come at a threshold moment — ending, beginning, or reclaiming. This retreat meets you exactly where you are and helps you rise.
Will I have any private time, or is everything done in a group?
Both. You’ll experience beautiful group moments and also have spacious private time for reflection, journaling, or simply soaking in the nature around you.
What if I’m not very spiritual?
No problem. This is about coming home to yourself, not adopting a belief system. You’ll be guided with practices that are gentle, grounding, and universally nourishing — no dogma, only devotion.
What if I’m not comfortable being in my body… dancing… doing rituals?
That’s okay. Nothing here is forced. Everything is consent-based and invitational. You’ll be gently guided to meet yourself where you are — no pressure, only permission. And often, what feels edgy at first becomes the very thing that sets you free.
Is there a payment plan?
Yes. A $555 deposit secures your spot, and the remaining balance is due by July 15, 2025. If you need a custom plan to make this dream doable, just reach out — we’ll find a way. This is your time.
Will this retreat “fix” me?
No—and that’s the whole point. You’re not broken. This is not about fixing, it’s about remembering who you are. You’ll leave not with another self-improvement project, but with vows to honor and celebrate your wholeness.
I’ve done retreats before… how is this different?
This isn’t a retreat — it’s a rite of passage. You won’t just leave relaxed. You’ll leave claimed… by yourself. This is ceremony, not just self-care. Sacred, playful, unforgettable.
What if I have dietary needs?
We’ve got you. Meals will be nourishing, fresh, and adaptable to common preferences (vegan, gluten-free, etc.). After you register, you’ll fill out a form to let us know your needs — and you’ll be well fed in every way.
I married myself above the clouds on the top of Haleakala, Maui at sunrise in 2008. The air was cold and the light was divine. I had one witness. I was on a solo journey, driving around the island in an old, funky rental car. I had purchased a beautiful trinity ring in Paia a few days earlier. This was a profound experience for me and it changed me. This solo ritual was a crucial step in my spiritual evolution. And now I want to offer this opportunity to you.
If you choose to join me, it will be my honor and privilege to accompany you through this powerful portal. As a certified Spirit Coach®️ and Reiki Master I will help you release anything that is holding you back from saying a wholehearted "Yes" to yourself – to the most intimate and important relationship you will ever have.
Love,
